What is Wrong with you?

You wake up every day. The view looks the same, with those curtains or those shades and the light peeking in around the edges. You glance at the clock – two more minutes – plenty of time to go back to sleep and dream. Can you do it? Yes you can. You desperately close your eyes and imagine that last dream you were having. You focus, you try not to notice that urge to scratch your ankle. AWWW too late, scratch. You glance at the clock again. It still says two minutes and then as you close your eyes – it changes – only one minute until the alarm goes off. You try again, a little more frantically, to force yourself into a coma. MEEP MEEP MEEP MEEP MEEP, you hit the snooze – 9 more minutes. . .

You drift off to sleep and you are in the same or nearly the same dream as before you awoke. You have a sense of fulfillment. You are happy. You are physically calm and centered. You may have even been having some of the best sex of your life – Your dream life. And then it happens again. MEEP MEEP MEEP MEEP. You slam your hand down on the snooze and be it this time or three snoozes later. You haul your carcass out of the bed. You curse yourself for not going to bed earlier, even though you went to bed at 9:00 and have had a full 8 hours. You feel exhausted. You stumble to the bathroom, dreading the thought of going in today. You think of how you feel and if you are sick enough to stay home. You know you won’t. I mean, you haven’t called off in over 5 years. You are the epitome of the perfect employee. You go above and beyond. You even actually like your job, once you get there. However, for some reason getting there is becoming more and more difficult every day.

Sound familiar?

What is wrong with you? What is wrong with me? What is wrong with us? Why are we living as if this is all there is? You are miserable and you have no reason to be miserable. You love your spouse, your partner, your significant other. You try to blame them for your misery, but they are there for you! Your house is great, dirty, but great. Your pets, your kids, your family love you. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? 

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